Long time no see

I remember the above to be the first sentence of that kind I learned in English. Now that is right what do I feel right now. Long time no see. Honestly? I am desperade, broken, ready to push the big red button with label "EJECT" three times to say goodbye. I wanna go home. Bad luck there is no other home than the one I currently reside in. But still, something makes me want to leave to go elsewhere, to another place like, the one I would call my home. No wonder there is so much terrorist attacks recently, because when I, who has a serious reason not to cry, when I am so devastated from living in this stress, what about people who are poorer than me and also don't understand this world like I do?
I wish I had another chance, another chance to anything and everything. I don't know if I understand what I said completely, but I hope someone will do.

Have a nice tomorrow.